Probably no-one cares but lately I've been really, really happy and inspired (but mostly happy). And it's weird because since forever I've never been a really happy person, but I've not generally been very very sad either. I've just been neutral for a long time. But this year I have been very sad and it has generally been a pretty bad year even though nothing much really happened to make it so bad and I don't know how that works. And a few weeks ago I felt so sad because I hadn't been truly, truly happy in such a long time and I couldn't remember what it felt like to feel so happy you want to hug people and plant trees and kiss babies and ado